Here are two poems written by Heather Stones who participated in one of our programs and is pleased to share these with you.
Mother where’d you go, I’ve needed you so long.
I’ve watched you die away, and they tell me to be strong.
Mother where’d you go, time has flown right by.
But the pain still lingers on, as I watch you slowly die.
The blue in your eyes is gone, speckled now with grey.
Tell me what to do, to make this go away.
I feel so alone sometimes, I wish that you were near.
Now when I see you, my mind fills up with fear.
You’re always on my mind, I think of you every day.
As I walk out this room, I’ll wonder if I should’ve stayed.
It’s hard to walk away from you, not knowing what will come.
I wonder if I’ve tried enough, what I could have done.
Two babies of my own now, I watch them grow with pride.
What happened to your love for us, don’t tell me that it died.
I’m not here to blame you, to tell you what you’ve done.
I just want to know, will I ever get back my Mom.
The past is far behind us, memories of hurt and pain.
I work every day to get rid of the buried shame.
I just want to forget it, to move forward from here.
I’m tired of living a life that’s full of fear.
It’s been years of watching, watching you slowly die.
I’m here to tell you, I don’t want to say goodbye.
This is not who you are, a fragile woman lying in a bed.
You’re a strong woman, and you can beat it before you’re dead.
I can no longer watch you, waste yourself away.
So I wrote this poem with hope that you’ll listen to what I say.
I love you and I need you, but I need you to be strong.
I don’t want to hear it’s too late, that you’re already gone.
I refuse to take it in, to accept what has become.
By Heather Stones
How was it so, that I was fooled.
My mind was so consumed.
All that I wanted, and all lies.
A sickened man in a slick disguise.
He saw weakness and I was his prey.
And because of him I’m stronger today.
And how was it so that I stayed for so long?
My mind didn’t want my heart to be wrong.
Courage took a while, and finally I was free.
He sits in a jail cell and it’s not because of me.
They go on to the next insecurity is their tool.
It took some time, but I am no longer the fool.
Too smart for him, and too strong for me.
Time is all it takes for the truth to be seen.
The scars will fade upon your broken heart.
You must let go of denial and the healing can start.
The bruises they fade, but the words stay a while.
It’s a cycle; a pattern of love, hate, and denial.
Don’t doubt yourself, never settle for less.
We can make it on our own, even if it’s a big mess.
Live your life without the pain and no more tears.
Don’t waste your years, let go of your fears.
You’ll wonder if it was for the best, you wonder what was true.
In time you’ll see he will destroy someone else if he doesn’t have you.
He now beats on her from the inside and out.
I wonder why she stays, but he’s filled her up with doubt.
By Heather Stones